Sorry ladies, it just didn't want to come out of my head right. Hope it worked out like I wanted it to*
Max stared out the window of the plane as they touched down.
Why did you kiss her?! What good did that do?? Now you have to live with her, not touch her, not think about how she felt against you… fuck!
This summer was going to be torture.
He figured he could get her into his bed without too much of a hassle, but he couldn’t use her like that. It wasn’t right. And no matter how good she tasted, no matter how much he wanted to feel her lips on the rest of his body… with what she’d been through, seducing her was not on the top of the list of things that he should be doing with her.
No, he should be helping her. Physical therapy, emotional therapy, making her smile. Making those nightmares stop. That was the first thing he hoped to do. That was the second time he’d been there to wake her from whatever dreams plagued her. He wanted the horrific images to erase from her brain.
Helping Juliet from the descending staircase, he led her into the back of a sedan and nodded to the guys that placed their suitcases in the trunk. Well… his suitcases. Tomorrow he’d go shopping and get her something to wear other than a Pens t-shirt and sweatpants that were entirely too big for her. It did give him a little roll of satisfaction that she was wearing his clothes instead of the scrubs that the hospital had given to her.
“So… do you live with your parents when you’re here?”
It was the first time she’d said anything to him since he’d gently woken her from the darkness that seemed to want to swallow her whole.
“Non. I have my own place. It’s not far from them, but it’s enough for now. I definitely need my privacy and independence. Juniors, the minors and now the NHL have made me crave that bit of ‘me’ time.”
The drive to his house didn’t take as long as he thought. Either there was no traffic or he just wasn’t paying any attention. If he had to choose, he’d guess it was the latter option. There was always traffic. He watched her as she stared out the window.
“I’m still sorry that you feel like you have to do this. I’ll be stealing your ‘me’ time.”
“I don’t feel… obli… oblique… obligated?”
“But I…”
“Would you like to see some of the city while you’re here?”
Max decided that he wasn’t going to let her try and make him feel bad for offering to do this. He really wanted to help her, and learn all about her. Try and figure out what made her want to do this for a living. What her family thought about it?
“Am I allowed to leave the house a lot?”
“Well, not a lot. But you can’t just pretend like you don’t exist.”
“That’s what they did though. They made it seem like everyone was dead.”
“No… they just didn’t report that anyone had survived. But no one expect for you and that other guy, and Mac, know the truth. So you can pretend to be my cousin or something. You don’t have to be my wife. That would be a lot of explain to my family. But around my friends, just be a visiting cousin. I’ll tell my parents and my brothers a fairly true story to cover our tracks.”
“This is precisely why I didn’t want to involve you.”
“Too late. I am involved.”
“You’re masochistic.”
“No I’m… Well, maybe I am. Now, here’s what I was thinking.”
He outlined his plan. They would get settled into his place tonight, maybe just order some take-out since he probably didn’t have any food in his house. And they could make a shopping list, multiple lists really, and go out the next day for clothes, necessities and food.
When they pulled up to the house he paid the driver, put his bags upstairs and came back down, falling onto the couch. He patted the cushion next to him and was pleased when Juliet came over and plopped down beside him. He phone buzzed and he looked at the screen, FLEUR, and made a note to text him later tonight.
He had already planned on letting his teammate know what was going on. Well, not everything. But he knew that he could trust Marc-Andre not to blab about him having some strange woman at his place. And Marc’s girlfriend Veronique was like the nicest girl ever. She could make you fall in love with her in a heartbeat, and she would be a great companion for Juliet.
“We’ll have dinner with Marc-Andre and Vero tomorrow night, okay?”
“Who are they?”
“Marc is the goalie for the Pens. He’s a great friend, and a great guy. And his girlfriend will definitely be a blessing for you. She’s amazing and it will give you someone to hang out with.”
“O-okay… Max… never mind.”
“What is it?”
“It’s nothing… don’t worry about it.”
“Juliet… it’s mostly going to be the two of us. Day in, day out. We have to be able to communicate.”
“You kissed me.”
That was not where he thought she was going to go right now. He had no explanation for it. Nothing other than the fact that she had looked so beautiful and helpless and his weak mind had made him lean forward to stop her incessant rambling. And then she had moaned against his lips. What man could stop from tasting her after that?
But he wouldn’t act on it. He was strong, he could control himself.
“Max?”
“I didn’t mean to do that.”
“You said that before. I think you did though.”
He turned an incredulous face toward her and realized that she was sitting a lot closer than she had been before. She was almost on top of him actually.
What is she doing?!
“I think you kissed me because you felt that little spark when we first met. You felt the same thing I did.”
“You had a gun. The only thing I was feeling at the moment was the urge to shit myself.”
Instead of backing away, getting indignant like he expected her to, Juliet just chuckled and sidled up against him. She slipped her left leg over his lap, using her good arm to stabilize herself, and then she was staring at him. He swallowed audibly.
“Juliet, this isn’t smart. This isn’t what you want.”
“Oh… I want this. Trust me.”
“Okay, maybe you want this now. But it’s wrong. You need to take time to relax and grieve.”
She needed to get the hell off his lap before he picked her up and carried her to his bed.
Focus Maxime. Be a good man. Take her to her room.
“I need to forget everything. Help me forget. Help me make it through the night. Even if it’s just this night.”
Her hand came up, stroking his cheek, igniting a slow burn in his chest. The simplest touch set him on fire.
You can do this. Just take her upstairs, and then walk away.
“What you need is to get a good night’s sleep. Come, I will take you upstairs.”
Before she could disagree or come up with something else that would try his patience, and his will, Max twisted her as gently as possible and wrapped her up in his arms. Standing, he ignored the comfortable feel of her arm around his neck and her fingers twirling in the hair at the base of his skull. She curled into him and he listened to her sigh as she breathed him in.
“Stop that Juliet.”
“Stop what?”
“It cannot happen.”
“Why?”
“I’m supposed to be taking care of you.”
“And sex doesn’t fall under that category?”
He snorted and started up the steps. On the second floor he had two options. He could turn left and take her into the room that she would be staying in while she was with him… or he could turn right and love her six ways from Sunday and complicate this all the way to Hell and back. She shifted slightly and Max looked down to ask her if she was uncomfortable. Her eyes were closed.
Thank goodness. Now I don’t have to decide.
He stepped into her room and walked over to the bed. Placing her gently onto the mattress, he pulled the afghan from the chair near the bed and laid it over her body. She sighed and a small smile played on her lips. His heart clenched and he had to force himself to walk away after covering her. Leaning down, he pressed a kiss to her forehead.
“Bonne nuit ma chère,” Max whispered against her skin.
He slid quietly from her room and pulled the door around, leaving it cracked in case she needed something in the middle of the night. He was in his bathroom, getting ready for bed, when he heard her cry out.
Not stopping to think, he dropped his toothbrush and booked it across the hallway and into the semi-darkness. He knew his house well, even though he wasn’t there that often. He side-stepped the desk and hurried to the side of the bed where Juliet’s voice cracked as she cried out ‘No Frenchie Nooo!’ and her arms flailed as if she were lashing out at something or someone.
“Réveillez-vous Juliet! C’mon, come back to me! Wake up!”
She jerked once more in his arms and then her eyes opened. She instantly wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed her tear-stained face into his neck.
“Please don’t leave me,” she whispered.
“I won’t… I won’t.”
Max started to tuck her back on the bed but she refused to let him go. He reached up and unclasped her hands, speaking softly and promising to come right back. He jogged into his bathroom and grabbed his shirt. It was one thing to torture himself in bed with her… it was another thing altogether to lie next to her in nothing but sweatpants.
When he got back to the room, he turned on her bathroom light and pulled the door almost shut, noticing that she had maneuvered herself under the blankets. Then he stood at the edge of the bed, warring in his mind over whether or not he could, and should, crawl in there with her. He’d almost made up his mind to just sprawl out in the chair when she turned over and patted the mattress.
“Come to bed. I promise not to attack you,” Juliet joked.
Max chuckled and pulled the blankets back, settling in beside her. She was propped on her side, facing him, and biting her lip. He told her to go to bed and then flipped over, facing away from her.
Maybe if I don’t look at her, don’t touch her, I’ll forget she’s right here.
It worked. Until morning.
Then he woke up with his hand groping her breast, his leg thrown over her calf in a possessive way, morning wood pressed against her ass and no idea on how to move without waking her up and embarrassing himself. He’d just lifted his leg when she snuggled herself against him. He held his breath, praying that she stayed asleep. When she gasped, he knew he was found out.
“I know you’re awake Max.”
Shit.